Actually banyak bende yg aku nak tulis berkenaan dengan tajuk kat atas tu....i can say, its one of the self conflict that i faced from the past 2 yrs...but its not so critical. Just sometimes feels like im in the wrong way...so negative thought....hahaha
Dulu..penah cikgu add math aku cakap...."why you are not believe in yourself??i believe in you...you should believe its more"..nie bile aku ckp kat dia aku tak confident nak dapat distinction dlm Add Maths..but well...aku sucsess jgk and got A2. Today...its happened again..im not believe in myself...dont think can retire as an engineer...the worst is..thought im not born to be an engineer...is it true??? Ermm......sometimes we DON'T EVER APOLOGIZE FOR BEING WHO WE ARE. Don't apologize for being smart, being strong, for looking like you look, thinking what you think, feeling how you feel. Don't waste our time worrying about what other people say or do. Just be strong, and be the woman we're meant to be.
Well.....aku rasa its better for me ...to explain what is the actual problem i faced. By refer to the profile...im 27 yrs...married and now working as Manufacturing Engineer kat salah sebuah Multinational Company kat Kulim Hi-Tech Park. dah 4 yrs++ aku keje dlm bidang nie and dah 3 kilang aku keje and kat sini la yg plg lama...2yrs++...Gaji pon ok laaa....agak mewah...but Its not easy to be a woman engineer especially bila directly involved dengan product and production (yield and quality laa)..Aku rasa requirement dia ...tahan kene maki.....and luv to work under pressure...hahaha...1st day aku report duty kat situ..i've told that im the only women work as manufacturing engineer and will work together with another 20++ man engineer and around 30++ technician which also a guy. Errkk..masa tu aku dah rasa takut...rasa cam pasni aku mesti kene buli...!st time aku jumpe engineering manager..the last sentence he said before release aku " here..you need to work as others....no skin..no race..no genders..everybody must give fully support with full capacity....you must proof to others that you can do it...you are the only girl"fuhh...kecut perut aku...high expectation......
Ok...let move...after 2yrs++ (total 4yrs++) aku dah mula rasa aku tak sesuai jd engineer...yelaa...mula2 keje mestilah excited..blk malam2 buta pon tak pe especially time bujang...blk pon bukan buat aperr...lepak sorang2...sembang ngan dinding......drp blk awal ngan tak buat apa..baik aku lepak kat kilang...ye dak???
Skg nie aku rasa cam dah penat...everyday is urgent..semua bende nak kene rush....silap sket kene balun...aku rasa takde yg tak urgent.....Super Urgent..Top Urgent...Super Top Urgent...Urgent....hishh...klu nak setel pon...kene pilih yg urgent but less important...pening...pening...Tu yg lama2 jd penat tu...and make me think to change profession..Engineer turn to Teacher...Bleh ker????difficut to decide..................
Lets move to history::......................
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